“I am not crazy; my reality is just different from yours.” – Cheshire Cat, Lewis Carroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland
Science and other notes
- Humanity May Achieve the Singularity Within the Next 12 Months, Scientists Suggest. Source
- The US Department of Defense has confirmed that it is taking seriously the claims of former US Air Force pilot Jacob Barber, who alleges that he recovered alien technology while working for a secret government UFO retrieval program. Source
- “That famous ‘revival of religion,’ …” he wrote. “It will come about as the result of biochemical discoveries that will make it possible for large numbers of men and women to achieve a radical self-transcendence.” – Aldous Huxley
Is God a Mushroom? New research into the role of psychedelics upends our understanding of spirituality — and with it, our vision of the cosmos. Source - “So few people understood how serious this was that it was, and that it was going to be, that it’s not just that this was so dangerous, but that there was very few people who were in a position to really say anything about this.” – Nathan Tankus Interview Source
- Lance Mungia talks with Jeffrey Mishlove about his upcoming documentary, The PK Man, explores the life of Ted Owens. Ted said he could control weather, influence events, and summon UFOs through psychokinesis. Source
- Mars once had an ocean and sandy beaches. Researchers say the results from the northern lowlands of Mars are similar to those obtained at shorelines on Earth using ground-penetrating radar: both indicate features in the subsurface material that are tilted – and with a similar angle – towards the lowland, or ocean, direction. Source
- “The Voice told me that they were here to change humankind and the way they did it was to enlist help from people like me.” – John Foster
- “The Kalanoro is a creature of the forest. It is never seen, but everyone talks about it.” Source
Chögyam Trungpa describes “crazy wisdom” as an innocent state of mind that has the quality of early morning—fresh, sparkling, and completely awake. – My interview with Jason Brett Serle
Up to speed – recap
In a previous post, I mentioned that some of my early instructions included studying philosophers whose views on reality resonated with an eventual, real-time experience. I was being guided and coached to maintain awareness and overcome fear, even when immersed in an alternate timeline. These thinkers challenge our conventional perceptions of the world, consciousness, and existence. They reject a static, deterministic view in favor of a dynamic process: Hegel’s dialectical development, Sartre’s emphasis on subjective freedom, and Camus’ recognition of existential absurdity.
My guides seem to be pushing me toward this same reality-expanding perspective—one that embraces fluidity and understands time and existence as far more dynamic than we’ve been conditioned to believe. Their lessons encourage us to view reality as an evolving tapestry, where the boundaries of time and self are permeable, inviting continual growth and transformation.
I want to make this perfectly clear: No matter how much they pushed, guided, or hinted, I could never have imagined the full scope of the real-time experiences that ultimately unfolded.
Enter – The Judge – sorry if this is repetitious
In 2009, I experienced a mind-blowing reality shift—one that shattered my previous understanding of the world. Something, or someone, stepped forward to alter my perception in ways I never imagined possible. Events unfolded that defied all conventional explanations, making it nearly impossible to articulate how such things could even occur. That spring marked a radical transformation in how I perceive reality.
It was disorienting, fascinating, liberating, and profoundly unsettling all at once. The experience(s) reinforced a stark truth—we have no real grasp of what is happening here. From this vantage point, I question whether it is even possible to discern a higher truth. The only option seems to be full immersion—to endure the process with the intent of opening the insight necessary to navigate through and ultimately transcend.
The only living person I can imagine who could identify with an experience like this—who was ridiculed for trying to draw public attention to mind shifts and patterns that challenge our current understanding of reality—is Philip K. Dick. I had no idea just how similar our experiences were until I began researching his writings and the accounts of those who knew him. His struggles to articulate what he had seen and understood mirror my own attempts to integrate and make sense of the impossible.
As I sift through my memories to reconstruct the atmosphere of that time, I recall how my guides—or those working alongside them—urged me to stop keeping a diary. Up until that day, I had meticulously documented my thoughts and experiences daily. That practice came to an abrupt halt, and in hindsight, I suspect that disruption was intentional. This segment is a recollection of how a few of those encounters unfolded during one of the most unsettling periods of my life.
For a short time, the guides instructed me to pay attention to the day’s events and watch for a pattern in the headlines. Cryptic but illustrative, they provided examples: Backwards, Upside down, Charicatures, Inside out, Exaggeration. They suggested it telegraphed an underlying theme – running a program through the collective. What might be the purpose? The motive?
[This was the same time frame where some of the people I saw appeared to have horns and tails.]
Journal: Today’s message feels like a subtle nudge, almost too cryptic to fully grasp: Things are not what they seem. It’s a message I can’t shake, and yet one that I almost want to dismiss. The oddities I’ve been noticing—the small glitches in my day—are starting to pile up, like fragments of a hidden truth. Each time I question them, I sense a presence, watching, as if waiting for me to catch on.
It happens around noon, when I step outside for a breath of air. The parking lot is nearly empty, save for a few cars shimmering in the afternoon heat. And that’s when I see her.
She’s an elderly woman, maybe in her seventies or older, with wild white hair and a long black coat that seems more appropriate for winter. She stands alone, looking lost, as though she’s wandered into this space without knowing how or why. There’s something off about her—a confusion in her eyes that stirs an unsettling feeling in me.
Our eyes meet. Her gaze is full of fear—a disoriented, profound confusion that almost feels like a reflection of the chaos I’ve been trying to make sense of. I feel a deep sense of empathy, an instinctive pull to help her, to do something, anything, to offer some sort of comfort.
Without thinking, I turn to my coworker and say, “Hold on. I need to help her.”
The Encounter: A Hidden Message
As I approach her, I feel a shift in the air, an almost imperceptible sense of something larger at play. I don’t know why, but I sense she’s here for a reason. The woman mutters to herself as I draw closer, her words barely audible. They feel fragmented, but something about them tugs at me, like a faint echo I can’t quite place.
“Can I help you?” I ask softly. “Are you looking for something?”
She looks up at me, her eyes locking onto mine for a fleeting moment. There’s a glimmer of recognition, like she knows me—or perhaps she sees something in me that I can’t understand. But then it fades, and fear settles in again. “My car,” she says, her voice shaky. “I—I don’t remember where I left it.”
I offer to walk with her. Intuitively sensing she parked her car at the opposite side entrance to store, I guide her around the building. As we move, I feel that strange sensation again—like we’re not just navigating the physical space but moving through layers of something hidden, something that’s there but invisible. We finally reach the other side, and I spot her car.
It’s then that I see it: the vanity plate. JUDGE.
The word hits me like a sudden realization, something profound and unsettling. It doesn’t just feel like a random coincidence; it feels like a sign—one I’ve been meant to see. The word glows in my mind, carrying a weight that I can’t quite articulate. I’m not sure why, but it feels like an undeniable truth, like a key to something I’ve been trying to understand.
The woman thanks me weakly before getting into her car and driving off. I stand there, watching her go, but I’m left with more questions than answers. Did she appear just for me to help, or was this encounter meant to show me something more? Was JUDGE a message in itself? And if so, what does it mean?
A Revelation: Expanding the View of Reality
That night, I lie awake, turning the encounter over and over in my mind. The vanity plate—the word JUDGE—keeps replaying in my thoughts. It feels significant, like a thread pulling at something deeper within me.
In retrospect, I realize this wasn’t a random meeting. This was a message—one designed to help me expand my understanding of reality. It’s clear now that we are not alone in this experience, and the hidden forces guiding us are far more present than we might think. But they don’t always show themselves in obvious ways. We’re meant to see the unseen, to perceive the subtle currents of influence beneath the surface of our everyday lives.
The JUDGE wasn’t just a word—it was a clue, a marker for the unseen presence I’ve been struggling to comprehend. It reminds me that our reality isn’t just physical; it’s layered, complex, and often invisible. The world we live in is shaped by forces that don’t always make themselves known, but they are no less real. And it’s up to us to learn how to recognize them.
The world feels chaotic, unpredictable, and fractured. But in that chaos, I’ve begun to sense the patterns, the hidden design. I see now that these moments—these seemingly unexplainable encounters—are not random. They are part of a larger truth, one that asks us to look beyond what’s in front of us and expand our awareness. Reality is a mask we wear, and beneath it lies something far deeper, something far more connected.
We are not alone in this journey. But to truly understand the presence of the unseen, we must first be willing to expand our perception, to question the world around us, and to look beyond the surface. Things are not what they seem.
And that is the guidepost, the message for these chaotic times.
For nearly three decades, I’ve encountered enigmatic experiences and inexplicable events that reveal a profound purpose behind both the guidance I receive and the challenges I face. The guides I’ve encountered are neither deceptive nor malevolent; they are intentional. When we set aside judgment and fear and allow trust to emerge, we gain expanded awareness and insights into higher realms and alternative states of existence.
My encounters are indicitive of something significant unfolding here—a form of instruction designed to help us navigate life and reality beyond our conventional limits. It leads us into the imaginal realm, where creation gives birth to the manifest world. In that space, thought forms are alive, dropping breadcrumbs of knowledge. Only when we open ourselves to these messages can we experience life not only within the dream but also beyond it.
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